Meri Brown.Photo:Meri Brown/ Instagram

Meri Brown

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Meri Brownis reflecting on the collapse of her polygamous familywithin 14 months.

TheSister Wivesstar, 52, tells PEOPLE that she is “very sad about what has happened with the family” after three ofKody Brown’s marriages came to end, including her own with the family patriarch.

“It’s very disappointing to me,” she shares. “And also, I get that we’re all unique individuals and we want the best for ourselves. And if the best for ourselves is not within the same family structure that we built and that we’ve had for so long, it is what it is, and I just want everybody to be happy with where they are.”

She added: “So no, I didn’t ever see this coming. I really didn’t. But I really truly just want everybody to be in a peaceful place with themselves.”

Robyn Brown, Meri Brown, Kody Brown, Christine Brown and Janelle Brown from “Sister Wives” arrive at the grand opening of Mike Tyson’s one-man show “Mike Tyson

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“You don’t think that that’s ever going to happen,” she continued. “And as we built the family, you just don’t think that what is going to happen is going to happen. You don’t know. You have no idea.”

The TLC star notes that she “100 percent gave it my all” beforeannouncing her splitfrom Kody in December 2022, saying, “I did everything in my power that I could do. And if I would’ve walked away any sooner, there would’ve always been a question in my mind of did I do everything that I can do? But I’m very confident knowing that I did everything that I could do, and I’m very at peace with the timing of it and how it all played out.”

Meri and Kody Brown.TLC (2)

Meri and Kody Brown

Despite the marriage coming to an end, the reality star says she would do it all over again.

“There’s definitely things in the past three decades that I would’ve done different, different conversations that I would’ve had. But I mean, hindsight’s 20/20, right?” she says. “You don’t know until you know, and there are a lot of things I didn’t know, Kody didn’t know, all of us didn’t know 20 years ago, 30 years ago.”

She continues, “So I think that my family and the life that I have lived and all the experiences that I have had has really only contributed to who I am now, so I can’t regret that at all.”

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source: people.com